The First 30 Days!

Hello my friends...I can't believe that it has already been 30 days since I began my Fabulous at 40 adventure....and let me tell you it has been an adventure. Why is it that when we want to change something it seems like everything around you tries to prevent you from making that change? I think that is what discourages people the most. We start a routine and then it goes really well and then once something gets in the way of our normal routine we get thrown off course. Many get discouraged and quit and go back to the old familiar way of life.....NOT ME!!!! I have been there and I have had those thoughts....Can you believe that ...and it's just the first month!! However, I have refused to give up...I have learned to go with what comes my way and try to work around it...if I can't do it...then oh well...I get back up and dust myself off and start again the next day. Thank God I have one day to live in and that's today...if I mess it up , I can start over the next day.!! Any who! So I know there is a question out there that I have yet to answer.....come on I know all of you want to know....LOL....MY WEIGHT!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH.
Well I did not weigh myself when I first started however...I will say that right before I started ..I was at a friends house and the scale went to 300lbs and then read error...LOL...I was horrified...I stepped on it again and it did the same thing.....so I am guessing it was well above 300lbs...guestimating around 310 -315...so today 30 days later I weigh in at 189.6 ....Last Friday when I bought the scale I weighed in at 194.4. So I know I am doing something right! Even with the wrench thrown in my schedule this weekend...didn't get a chance to exercise...we were doing work in the dinning room/ kitchen and couldn't cook meals...so we ate out several times.....GOD is GOOD!...I still am losing despite my screwups!! lol....Another thing that I have done this past month is that I joined a new denomination!
Yes that's right...I am now a Presbyterian...I love my new church...I am really getting involved with my church...singing in the choir...helping out with Special music...getting involved with church gatherings. I hope to get more involved with a committee or two...and who knows one day become an Elder of the Church...All I know is that God lead me to this wonderful church that reaches out to the community! OH and I actually am excited about tithing!!! I have not been faithful in this before and have missed out on the many blessings because I have not been faithful in my tithing..ever...so this is a leap of faith for me..because I don't make very much and I have been living pay check to pay check...but i know God is Faithful!!
Last but not least ..I have quit smoking..cold turkey...no Nicorette. no chantix...no welbutrin......I made it 30 days so far...no cravings or urges...however I can tell that my tension level has increased and I have been trying to lower that with daily prayer and meditation and exercise....it's working but there are days where I have snapped at someone or maybe cursed someone under my breath while I was driving...lol. But I am hanging on!!!
I just want to say a thank you to all of you who have encouraged me this past month. It has really been a blessing.. Those of you who have been praying for me ..Thank you...they give me the strength to make it through the day!.....It also makes me excited to hear that some of you are wanting to change something in your life as well...it doesn't have to be anything drastic...just make it something for the better...not just for yourself but for your fellowman..Although you might think my motive is selfish...it really isn't...I want to be Fabulous at 40 because I want to be the best TJ that God wants me to be...it was just time for me to take inventory and clear out the bad things in my life....I am not by any means claiming to be perfect or am I trying to be Holier than Thou because of what I am doing...I just want to present myself acceptable to God...any who....enough preaching...lol....Thank you!!! TJ

UGH!!!!

ok..It's the end of the 2nd full week and the beginning of the 3rd. I took 4 days off the my regular walking and eating routine this past week. I went to Pasadena with my room mate to visit his family. I had a blast however...do you have any idea what happens after you stop exercising and eating right for 4 days...well I found out today...especially the not exercising part...I feel like I am back at the beginning again...I could barely even walk a lap...I feel so tired it's crazy! I have been eating healthy...I have even been trying to eat small healthy snacks in between meals to help boost my metabolism. It doesn't seem to be working...but then of course..I did not follow this for the last 4 days..so maybe that is it..I realize I need a light to get this metabolism fired up and running. I even have been taken a multi purpose vitamin...I truly hope I can get this under control so I can feel energized!! Right now I am not feeling it!! But I refuse to give up!! I am so glad I am getting paid this week because I need to buy some exercise materials...ie..simple weights, an exercise ball..small stuff to help me get my gut down to a normal size..lol...oh well...it will happen I know it!!
This has also been the longest I have gone without smoking for a long time...let me tell you although I have no urge to smoke most of the time...I do find myself on edge...very moody and tense...I have almost snapped the heads off of a couple of people...I feel at these times that those little receptors that that one commercial talks about...they are running a muck in my head...lol...I really have to step back and ask God to take away the cravings..to make those bad feelings go away..I tell you that when I do just that...he does for me what I can not do for myself!! He takes that craving and those feelings away...thank you God!!

Week 1

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil. 4:13

What a week!! God is good!! Thank you for your support and prayers!! It's exciting to see some of you out there wanting to jump on the wagon with me!! I support you 100%. That is an encouragement to me as well!!
I have to admit that this weekend did not go as I planned it...lol....but that's what happens when I try to plan things out..Although I did not exercise this weekend..I did eat healthy..for the most part....ok...what can I say..I am not perfect!! I am so glad that each day is a new day! I will say that I do feel better!
I went to an AA meeting the other day! For those of you who don't know I am a member of Alcoholics Anonymous! I have been sober 9yrs. The meeting topic was about what keeps you coming back to the meetings? I have to admit I haven't been attending meetings as much as I should and I know it is important to be at those meetings to help out another alcoholic! Well that night after the meeting this guy I have known for a while as an acquaintance asked me to sponsor him ...he has not been to a meeting in a long time...I invited him to go to a meeting on Saturday but he ended up having to work..but the door is opened!!
So not only am I a recovered alcoholic...I have had an addiction to cigarettes for sometime as well...this has been a long week of not smoking!! I picked up a 24 desire chip at my AA meeting...I plan on using the 12 steps to quit smoking as well! As said before God is good!
Today I joined Treasure Hills Presbyterian Church! That's right I said Presbyterian!! I have been attending this church for sometime and I really felt led to join!! They are an amazing congregation! I can't wait to really get involved ! I have been wandering around for some time!!
So that's it for now!! It's late and I need to get some rest!! God Bless!!